Dear Norma Jean,
You know that there have been many times while driving that you snapped out of auto-pilot that was taking you one way when you really intended to go someplace else. When that flash moment zaps you, you wake up to having gone the wrong direction, so you self-correct by turning around or taking a different route. That is the moment of awareness.
Too much of your life has been spent in just going along for the ride oblivious that you have choices. But knowing there is a choice requires you to be present. Your thoughts about the past can cloud your mind with shame, regret, frustration, and even anger at others as well as yourself. You have recalled past events that bring joy and happiness, but most of the time even those moments do not stay in focus because they can be fleeting if you are unconscious of the goodness of your life. Likewise because your future is yet to unfold, worry and fear can dominate the perspective of what is yet to be. How often do you consider the amazing opportunities that await you?
And for each of the split seconds in the present do you appreciate what is happening now? That is when awareness is critical to finding peace and calm if that is what you desire or choose. You know that the present can slip into the past instantly and can also walk you into the future in the next breath. But you have the ability to stay in the moment with practice and be aware of how that feels.
Awareness is a choice. You can decide to enjoy the colorful leaves as they are blown off the trees onto the lawn by the blustery winds or you can bemoan the fact that you now have a monumental task of raking and bagging all of the debris left by nature.
Now that you are going into the holiday season, will you choose to be among the irritated in the commercialized, hustle bustle crowd of expectations or will you remember the message of the season by being peaceful, loving, kind, and forgiving (yes, forgiving of yourself as well as those in the first group) to all people.
You get to choose. Being aware of what you choose will make your present moment one of anger or bring you moments of joy as you make the many clean sweeps across your lawn or as you wrap each gift with love. But first, you have to be aware that it is not just happening to you, it is an opportunity to learn about yourself. So keep looking for the clues that will bring your attention to your awareness of life.
With Love, Your Higher Self
“How can you know whether you chose the stairs to Heaven or the way to hell? Quite easily. How do you feel? Is peace in your awareness? Are you certain which way you go? Are you sure the goal of Heaven can be reached? If not, you walk alone. Ask then, your Friend to join with you, and give you certainty of where to go.” (T-23.II.22:6) ACIM